Confused

My brain and my heart is having a fight

I think I am my own worst enemy (for now)

"WE" are trying to sort this out

Cant Sleep

Its almost 2a.m.

I doze off earlier...woke up about midnite.

Cant go back to sleep.

Must be the late dinner. Ate too much because i skipped lunch.

Bad idea.

So what do i do.

Eat some more....

Good morning!

Oxygen

FACT:

'Oxygen can lift that feeling of depression, will improve circulation sending invigorating oxygen to your brain and all your muscles. '

I'm sure you've heard that before!

Anyway, pagi ni pukul 7.30 baru terjaga. Alarm subuh pun tak dengar...ishhh.

Dah bangun, tengok weather pun cool je...i decided that my brain needed extra oxygen to trigger some happy brainwave....Lagi pun dah lama tak ada pyhsical activity. So i drove all the way to the famous Tasik Shah Alam. (famous apa tau...tempat orang dating...sapa2 yg pernah duduk/ study kat Shah Alam tau sangat la kan). I tak pernah dating sini okkaayyy;-)




Nak jogging takut sakit2 badan esok. Almaklumlah....since i quit gym way back when.....tak pernah exercise. So, brisk walking saja....low impact.




The last time i was here must have been more than 5 years ago. Best jugak la kat sini.Boleh datang lagi.







Did the oxygen work??? I guess so. Rasa lebih energetic.



Sudah sudah la melayan emo Anne....start keje!

Mood Swing

I was allright, on a good mood in fact since Jan 1st.

Today, after one phone call and an email (both unrelated), i'm not doing so good.

A bit angry...a bit depressed.

Worst still there's no one to blame.

Its not even too big a deal.

I am consoling myself. I cried a little..then i went to sleep for a while.

Of course i prayed a little 'doa' . That always helps.

and now i'm blogging about it, hoping that by typing this out, it gets out if my system.

See, i feel better already.

(forgive me if i sound like a nutcase)

Baju Kurung Pahang

Kenapa I ambik gambar depan cermin ni?????

1. Sebab baju ni mak kasi masa raya haji. Hehehe, dah tua ni pon mak belikan baju raya...

2. Sebab ni first time la buat baju kurung style pahang ni...ada orang panggil pesak gantung (betul ke??) OK tak? I agak suka pulak cutting ni. Boleh buat lagi...ni bukan beli ready made...tailor seumur hidup, Ah Lian yg jahitkan. Upah Ah Lian untuk style pahang RM40, extra sikit. Baju kurung pesak biasa RM30-35 je...complicated sikit katanya....l

Ni saja mengada nak posing close up sorang-sorang. I had a meeting tadi petang. Meeting 3.30pm...pukul 2 dah siap. Sempat la posing dlm 'office' i kejap.

Semangat & excited lebih sikit sebab hari ni kick off project baru...first meeting for 2009, first project for 2009. Job kecik je tapi Alhamdullilah, kecik pun syukur.

10 Muharram

Tahun Hijrah 1430...hari ni jatuh 10 Muharram, atau Hari Asyura.

Kepada kawan2 bloggers yang puasa sunat hari ni, selamat berpuasa. Semoga ibadah anda diberi ganjaran oleh Allah SWT.

Kalau masa kecik2 dulu, kalau hari Asyura, saya akan ingat bubur Asyura yg mak buat, dan jiran depan rumah yang kami panggil Mak Tuan. Jiran lain ada jugak hantar bubur, tapi tak sehebat bubur Mak Tuan.

Pagi ni saya google sejarah di sebalik Hari Asyura, dan saya kongsi di sini antara info yang saya dapat tentang signifikan di sebalik hari ini.

10 Muharam
Dinamakan juga hari 'Asyura'.
Pada hari itu banyak terjadi peristiwa penting yang mencerminkan kegemilangan bagi perjuangan yang gigih dan tabah bagi menegakkan keadilah dan kebenaran

Pada 10 Muharam juga telah berlaku:
-Nabi Adam bertaubat kepada Allah.
-Nabi Idris diangkat oleh Allah ke langit.
-Nabi Nuh diselamatkan Allah keluar dari perahunya sesudah bumi ditenggelamkan selama enam bulan.
-Nabi Ibrahim diselamatkan Allah dari pembakaran Raja Namrud.
-Allah menurunkan kitab Taurat kepada Nabi Musa.
-Nabi Yusuf dibebaskan dari penjara.
-Penglihatan Nabi Yaakob yang kabur dipulihkkan Allah.
-Nabi Ayub dipulihkan Allah dari penyakit kulit yang dideritainya.
-Nabi Yunus selamat keluar dari perut ikan paus setelah berada di dalamnya selama 40 hari 40 malam.
-Laut Merah terbelah dua untuk menyelamatkan Nabi Musa dan pengikutnya dari tentera Firaun.
-Kesalahan Nabi Daud diampuni Allah.
-Nabi Sulaiman dikurniakan Allah kerajaan yang besar.
-Hari pertama Allah menciptakan alam.
-Hari Pertama Allah menurunkan rahmat.
-Hari pertama Allah menurunkan hujan.
-Allah menjadikan 'Arasy.
-Allah menjadikan Luh Mahfuz.
-Allah menjadikan alam.
-Allah menjadikan Malaikat Jibril.
-Nabi Isa diangkat ke langit.

Wallahua'lam
Dipetik dari http://www.al-azim.com/masjid/muharram/peristiwa.htm

A little pep talk would do us good:-)

Don't worry!

Don't worry about how long it will take, or what others will think of you, or how difficult it will be. Just get busy and do it.

Instead of wasting your time and energy on worry, use that time and energy for action. Instead of visualizing what you don't want, create what you do want.

Of course there will be challenges, painful mistakes, embarrassing moments and difficult efforts. But instead of worrying about them and making them worse, just go ahead, work your way through them and get them over with.

Worry fills you with doubt, and doubt eats away at your dreams. Choose instead to take action, with so much relentless determination and intensity that there's no room for worry.

Even though there will always be problems, you are truly capable of greatness. Imagine yourself fulfilling that greatness, starting right now from where you are with what you have.
Then jump enthusiastically into the journey.

Forget the worries, and bring your best possibilities to life.

-- Ralph Marston

Fresh

Brand new year...a fresh start.
Today i start on a brand new project.
Renewed spirit and determination.

I set the alarm super early.
Only to wake up to a tummy ache and a headache..........
Bummer!!!!!!

But its still early...hope the minyak angin can fix this
Its still a long day ahead.
I'm not gonna let this senak perut spoil my fresh start

Australia The Movie

When Jill asked me to go watch this movie with her, i said no initially. I imagined a western kinda flick...which is not my thing...and i dont usually enjoy Nicole Kidman.

I went anyways.

I couldnt have been more WRONG.

I loved the movie. Good story, beautiful cinematography, enjoyed the entire 3 hours.

It was like reading a good story book.

If you havent seen it, go watch it while its still playing.

p.s...ladies, Hugh Jackman is hot...almost McDreamy hot:-D

Girls Day Out

Date: 31 December 2008
Occassion:
-I just wanted a day out...get away from work
-Jill wanted to watch the movie Australia
-Halley is back from Dubai for a short break, and wanted to catch up with her bff(s) ;-)
Location: The Curve/Ikano/Cineleisure

....an entire day out, and i only have these 7 pics to show for....heheh

The Countdown

Salam Maal Hijrah 1430

Selamat Tahun Baru Hijrah.

Semoga tahun baru ini membawa banyak kebaikan, dan kita menjadi hamba Allah yang lebih baik dari tahun lalu, InsyaAllah

Just my luck...

Why is it that i always end up with work at the 'best' of times?

Masa orang tengah syok-syok holiday, masa tu lah i have things to rush.

What to do......

I have 2 major things to finish. Baru siap satu semalam.

One more to go!

No Sweet Dream

I woke up pretty early even before my 6.30 alarm went off.

I keep waking up and getting back to sleep with this weird dream. Very disturbing.

There was this guy - married! I dont know who he is. We are in a car together, and i was harrased. I keep pushing his hands away. Then i woke up.

When i went back to sleep, the dream continued...and i was planning an 'escape'. I was saved eventually. My aunty came into that dream, and i also ended up in a bus with my friend missqq wearing baju sekolah menengah.

Merepek betul....

Sound Check: UPDATED!!!!

Something is not right with my right ear since Satuday morning.

Tak tau kenapa....bukan sakit. Tapi ada bunyi-bunyi. Especially bila ada bunyi bising, music, tv....the sound will bounce back with ringing in my ears. Tak tau nak explain macam mana. Bunyi macam burung pun ada.

Kalau bawak kereta, kena off radio - if not, tak tahan.

Semalam i had to meet someone kat kopitiam in Subang Parade. Adussss, the noise from the kitchen, the crowd, the sudu garpu....tak tau nak explain bunyi-bunyi macam macam dalam telinga. Setiap sound akan ada pantulan semacam dalam telinga...sakit kepala.

Balik tido....pastu hilang pulak.

Scary jugak. Pelik jugak. Pernah jadi kat you all mcm ni?

I woke up this morning, and its happening again. Tapi not as bad as semalam.

Nak pegi jumpa Dr Razana la kejap lagi, she's my trusted GP kat kawasan rumah ni....hope its nothing too serious.

UPDATED

OK - dah pegi klinik.

Dr Razana cakap the outer ear, yg dia boleh tengok dgn teropong telinga tu...nothing wrong, takde infection, wound or anything.

So must be the koklea part...which tak nampak. So susah nak tau cause dia. So she can only treat symptomatically. I got flu medicine in case i have a virus that might infect the koklea, and anti-anxiety pills...to relax..in case stress in causing the koklea instability. Then see one week, if still ada kena refer ENT specialist.

The only good thing is i'm not hearing things that are not there. Ada satu penyakit ni where orang tu dengar bunyi burung ke, cengkerik ke all the time dalam telinga, tapi sebenarnya bunyi tu takde pun. The medical term is Tinnitus. Kalau kena yg ni, takde ubat. Scary tau.

Alhamdulillah, so far takde bunyi-bunyi lagi. I pray its gone for good.

Blogger's Block

I must be suffering from some kind of blogger's block...(if there's such a thing)

A lot of things going on lately, yet i just cant bring myself to post anything....

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha

Islamic Greeting Cards by Alhabib

Stories from Sibu Part 2

Lepas workshop ada la jalan-jalan sikit just to see Sibu town a bit.

The town mostly shoplots bangunan lama, kecuali some new office buildings and hotels yg high rise. Nothing much to see here. Nak shopping pun takde apa sangat. So i jalan2 je just explore the town on foot a bit. Yang dekat-dekat dgn hotel je la.

Ini pulak kat tepi-tepi Sg Rejang. Kotor la situ, color air bukan macam teh tarik dah, nescafe tarik kaw kaw punya....tapi busy sungai ni as mode of transportation...both orang and barang.

Check out pic kat bawah tu yg besar sikit. Cuba tengok yg 'pink color' tu...fikirlah sendiri ye apa benda yg ditransport jugak kat Sg Rejang tu.

hint hint...spot the oink oink

While waiting for my flight malam tu, ada la i ikut the training coordinators (also fr KL) jalan-jalan. Pagoda ni one of the famous landmarks kat Sibu. Posing je la dgn muka tak kuasa....

Jalan-jalan cari makan.

Dapatla rasa laksa sarawak (sedap rupanya..takde rasa ikan pun, rasa udang) and the next one is a chinese style noodle nama apa tak ingat (tak sedap pun)

Also Pasar Sibu. Banyak local produce kat sini. Murah la fruits and veg kat sini. I snap gambar yang pelik-pelik sikit je la.

yg hitam macam olives tu buah dabai. senang dapat kat Sibu je. Participants kursus ada yang beli bawak balik Kuching. Cerita diaorang, favourite la buah ni among locals, dan musimnya sekejap saja. I rasa sebijik, tak sedap...tak boleh nak habiskan. Rasa pelik...manis tak, pahit pun tak. tak tau nak describe.

yg green tu miden, i pernah makan kat Kuching once. Sedap...macam pucuk paku, boleh goreng belacan atau masak macam sayur biasa.

Fr left: Terubuk masin...(mahal kat sini compared to Kuching/Bintulu); Live chicken for sale...kesian kena ikat macam tu, tak boleh gerak; Durian hutan...i tak rasa but kawan yg rasa tu tak boleh nak telan.

That's all i can share. Lousy pics i know! - takde mood, just point and shoot. Lagipun orang pandang mcm pelik je bila nak ambik gambar;-)