Anti Valentine Movement

When u are single and you see flowers and chocolates and lovey dovey couples all around, u go left wing!!!!

Kita Hampir Ke Situ

I like this song when i heard in on the radio.... i initially didnt pay attention to the lyrics, i thot its another catchy love song. When i looked it up, i buzz Jill on YM...this could be a theme song of our struggle together...hehe.

So this is for me n Jill, my business partner (& partner in crime)..;-)

Aku sedar bukan mudah
Untuk mengejar mimpi indah
Pernah suatu ketika dulu
Ku punya harapan besar
Kini aku tak pasti
Dapatkah ku miliki

Sudah jauh kita tempuh
Kekalkanlah impian lalu
Mungkin ada hikmah
Yang akan menunggu
Di penghujung jalan
Biar nanti kecewa
Setidak-tidaknya cuba

*Jika halangan menduga perjalanan kita
Janganlah kau putus asa
Kerana ku ada di sisi setia menemani
Andai semangatmu gugur
Genggamlah tanganku
Kita hampir ke situ

Adakala ku terasa
Ketabahan tak setegar
Tetapi apakan daya
Berhenti separuh jalan
Percayalah padaku
Aku yakin kita mampu

Biar orang katakan
Rapuhnya harapan
Bukan mereka tentukan lagi
Kau ada aku dan aku punya kamu
Apa jua akhirnya tetap bersama

Mendua/Hampir Ke Situ/ OST Duyung

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thanks

thanks to u lovely people who always leave kind words in the comment box of my 'not-so-happy' posts...and there's been quite a number of those lately. appreaciate it a lot people;-) mwaahhsss....

CNY long break kerja kerja kerja....but i'm relieved that i've completed almost 75% of the work. Phewww.....tired, sleep deprived and all. Last night i only managed to get 3 hours of sleep. And today skipped lunch lagi sebab client want something before end of day. kurus kering la by end of the project like this. Malam ni pun makan maggi je sebab too tired to stop and tapau, and of coz too tired nak masak.

Gonna go catch some zzzzzs.

Emo

I'm all emo out of a sudden, nothing happened....maybe hormones, maybe circumstances, i dunno. I'm scared of what the future holds, really scared.

Happy Chinese New Year from Anne's Prelude

To all my chinese friends & bloggers


Note: flash player has been removed before somebody gets a heart attack or bleeding ears:-)))))

Lepas Geram

Hari ni skip lunch lagi, tapi the upside is by 3.30pm dah settle semua session kat Port Klang. Phew.....so terus drive balik. Ingat nak masak takes time lagi, so on the way back cari la apa-apa makanan nak tapau. Maybe sebab dah lapar sangat, ini lah jadinya....

Makan sorang...goreng pisang seringgit, keropok lekor seringgit, nasi lemak 1.30. In money terms bunyi sikit kan, tapi singgit singgit tu satu bag plastic makan sorang, jangan tertipu gambar tu nampak sikit setelah dah makan separuh jalan heheh. Alhamdullilah kenyang, tapi rasa lousy and lazy la lepas makan. Esok kena masak yg healthy healthy sikit;-)

Apam Balik anyone??

That was me at 7.00 a.m. ......early in the morning dah layu. imagine how i look like at 5. I'm very tired. All these interviews are draining me out. Lagi la if i have to sit down and talk to uninspired, demotivated people, lagi letih. Anyway, can't complain....tiring but i enjoy it.


Today i had 6 back to back sessions averaging an hour each at my client's office in Port Klang. Even missed lunch. Before i left this sweet lady brought me this and insisted i have some before leaving the office. I had 2 pieces (tak malu betul) ;-) Lama tak makan apam balik, best gila!

Well said....

"A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo?

The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying."

(Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy)

Itu Kamu

Itu Kamu has just been crowned Juara Lagu. I love that song, but i would not have thought the judges would crown it as The Best Song. Selalu lagu lagu ballad yang dapat. Yet, its the right result. 2007 is the year where simple melody and not so jiwang lyrics reign.

I couldnt help remembering how Rich was called a 'munafik' by a 'pengkritik' at one of the AF concerts. He cried and I'm sure at that point of time, he wouldn't have dreamed of his success tonite.

Selalunya when something bad happens, we cant figure what good can possibly come out of the situation, tapi hikmah tu Tuhan saja yang tahu. I keep telling myself this for the past few days to cope with my own problems.

Sorry, distracted.

Back to AJL - another good win is for Izinku Pergi. Ok jugak Saari nyanyi, but it would have been extra special if Kaer was there. Besides Kaer, i'm sure Mr Eddy Purnama Sparrow is thrill to bits.

Ramai pulak budak2 AF on stage tonite kan, Bob nyanyi best lagu Kasih Tercipta (tho he had too much make up on...haha).

I thot the whole show was pretty boring, and only started to pick up at the end. Good results in the end.

Focus

Since last night, i've been trying to take my mind off things by drowning myself with things to do. Clean up kitchen, basuh baju, kemas rumah. This morning, i have planned on cooking an early lunch, and run an errand. Then i will get on with my project work, catching up on backlogs.

No sitting around pondering on 'what ifs' and 'if nots' today.

Scam update: today i've been promised news on my recovery claim. i am not that optimistic, but hoping for the best.

I also met an old friend last night, who offered a helping hand if the worst of the worst happens. i didnt ask for help, and as far as possible wouldnt want it, but it did give a slight relieve that if i ever reach that most desperate situation, there is a way out. Dia cakap dia ingat i pernah tolong dia a loooooong time back when he was in a rut, and what goes around comes around. I've always thot of that quip as a negative one, like jgn buat jahat nanti kena balik....but i was wrong.

Have a good weekend everyone.

Fighting

Have you ever felt like you are fighting a losing battle?

Shit Happens

A supposedly off day, which i should spend catching up on backlog in filling up the assessment forms that is steadily piling up, but "manusia hanya mampu merancang...."....

The above places were where i ended up.

I wouldnt want to elaborate, but suffice to say Tipah Tertipu.

A lot of emotions i am feeling right now, but i'm trying to put everything behind me because i have to focus on my work. The current project needs my full focus.

Thanks Jill for the company just now, it made a whole world of difference not to have to go through today alone. Thanks untuk Cik Man yg forever willing to help whenever needed. Kawan2 masa susah yang susah nak cari.

Note to Self:

-Benda dah jadi, cant turn back time.
-Do what needs to be done to mitigate, beyond that have to accept consequence.
-Life lessons can be painful but think positive.
-Dont panic.
-Dont cry...(sambil nangis ni:-()
-Dont be too hard on yourself.
-It could be worse.
-Ingat Tuhan, this always gives you strength.

Good news on a Monday Morning

Putrajaya, KL cuti Thaipusam

KUALA LUMPUR: Thaipusam diisytiharkan sebagai cuti umum di Wilayah Persekutuan Kuala Lumpur dan Putrajaya bermula pada perayaan tahun ini, yang disambut lusa.

Mengumumkannya pada Majlis Sepetang Bersama Perdana Menteri anjuran MIC Wilayah Persekutuan, di sini, semalam, Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi berkata, kerajaan membuat keputusan itu sebagai menghormati permintaan masyarakat India dan penganut Hindu.

"Lagipun, setiap kali sambutan Thaipusam, jalan raya di Kuala Lumpur sesak sehingga menyukarkan orang ramai hendak pergi kerja. Namun kita bersabar atas dasar saling menghormati upacara sambutan kaum lain," katanya.

Ketika ini, Selangor, Johor, Negeri Sembilan, Perak dan Pulau Pinang mengisytiharkan Thaipusam sebagai cuti umum.

Source: Berita Harian

It was nice to be greeted by this piece of good news on a Monday morning. Siapa kerja kat KL, happy?

10 Muharram

Dah lama i tak rasa nikmat weekend, nikmat tak payah nak rush to get ready in the morning, and join the a.m. traffic. Since i kerja sendiri, weekend i tend to stay at home unless ada janji dengan sesiapa. I started to hate the weekend crowd at the gym, the malls, the movies. I plan those things for the weekdays. Kadang-kadang tak rasa any difference between weekdays and weekends, except for some shows on TV i will look forward to.

Tapi, today i have to work even though lepak kat rumah - complete all my interview assessments so that next week i can start fresh, no backlogs.

Hari ni Hari Asyura, 10 Muharram. To yang berpuasa sunat hari ni, Selamat Berpuasa.

UPDATE


Time: 5.00p.m.
Location: My home office
State of Being: Drowned in all the paperwork
State of Mind: Bukan senang mencari rezeki
State of Body: My back aches, food would be good right now!

Highlight of the Day

Lunch

I found a stall that i like. I discovered the perfect time to go to lunch. I ate this lauk that i found interesting and refreshing.



Ayam goreng panas2 - dipotong2 - letak kicap, bawang, cili padi - perah limau. Best sangat. I can live on this everyday.

Tears

This "kakak" suddenly broke into tears during one of the interviews. I passed her a tissue and gave her a few minutes. She was ok after that, very chatty. Then she asked to be excused, she need to run to the loo....haha, that's another career first for me. Belum pernah lagi orang mintak nak pi bilik air tengah tengah interview. Haha.

Kenapa....

saya jumpa ramai orang hari ni,
tapi kenapa saya rasa sangat sunyi

saya duduk, cakap dan tulis saja hari ni,
tapi kenapa saya rasa sangat penat

saya cukup sihat, cukup makan dan minum hari ni,
tapi kenapa saya hampir lupa bersyukur

saya dah mulakan projek pertama saya untuk tahun ini,
tapi kenapa saya tiba2 hampir hilang semangat

saya tak ada banyak sebab untuk bersedih
tapi kenapa saya rasa nak nangis

saya tak tahu.....

My First Day

Today is my first day for this project. I was out of the house by 7.30a.m. to join the morning traffic-Its been a while, never missed that part. Reached the parking, and the access parking card the client gave me was not active. Bummer, i had to take the chip coin because cars were queing behind me. Lucky they got that sorted out, and i didnt have to pay anything when i left. I'm just hoping the card will work tomorrow.

They scheduled 5 people to talk to me today, an hour each with half an hour break in between. I was thinking i wanted to bring my laptop and get online in between interviews, but good thing i didnt. The half an hour break is not even enough for me to complete the forms. At least the small doses of music from my MP3 player keeps me sane.

I had a late lonely lunch after i sorted out the security card. Lousy one...(Cik LilyLulu...kat mana yg you makan sedap dan murah tu? I ate at the stalls kat belakang tu. takde canteen pun?)

Because they pack the schedule so tight, i now have to complete the forms at home. Macam budak sekolah, ada homework...I have to find a way to speed things up. They are not paying me enough fees to work day and night....

A good start.

I closed a deal yesterday. A first for the year 2008/1429. A small project but still its a good start. So small than i can do it alone without Jill's help, which is just as well because Jill is on vacation until end of next week.

The catch is for the next 4 weeks, i will have to be at the client's place 9-5 almost every day.

The job involves me interviewing about 100 of the clients staff, mostly IT people.....it will help if the guys are cute...haha, kidding.

I'm ok with waking up early - which i do even though i work at home...but i hate getting ready in the morning. Anyway, i suppose i can endure it for a month. I have to earn a living!

So anyone within the vicinity of HP Tower, lunch?

Not Another One....

After the horror of Nurin's case last year, i cant even imagine what this girl's parents are going through. Lets pray for her safe return...unharmed.

Maal Hijrah

Salam Maal Hijrah. Semoga diampunkan dosa kita di tahun yang lepas, dan diberkati perjalanan hidup kita di tahun yang baru ini. Jangan lupa baca doa akhir and awal tahun hari ini. Nak ingatkan diri saya sendiri sebenarnya, tapi saya share jugak kat sini fadhilatnya yang sangat besar, insyaallah.

Sesiapa yang membaca Doa Akhir Tahun, syaitan berkata
"Kesusahan bagiku dan sia-sia lah pekerjaanku menggoda anak Adam pada setahun ini dan Allah binasakan aku satu saat jua. Dengan sebab membaca doa ini, Allah ampunkan dosanya setahun"

Sesiapa yang membaca Doa Awal Tahun, syaitan berkata
"Telah amanlah anak Adam ini daripada godaan pada tahun ini kerana Allah telah mewakilkan dua Malaikat memeliharanya daripada fitnah Syaitan".

p/s - kalau nak cari doanya, google je. there are many links for the doa and terjemahan sekali.